[Damn. She thought she'd deleted that. Ugh. Well, fuck it, she hates lying.]
Because compliance showed up and tried to take me in and North said they pulled me out of the traction array partly. Whiskey hasn't said anything but I'm worried.
Bad complicated I'm guessing. Anything I can do to help?
Okay I guess? I'm worried about him. He didn't talk to me for like a day and a half and he said stuff happened that really upset him, I guess to do with the reflections. I told him he didn't have to come visit if he's not feeling good but he's coming over anyway which is really nice of him and making soup for me too.
Compliance. That's distressing. [Yeah, no fake. But he doesn't really want to say too much in case compliance wants to see him again.] Bad complicated. I don't think there's anything you can do. It'll just have to work itself out for now.
I'm not comfortable saying what might have happened with him. That'd be something for him to tell you or not himself. I think being around you will help though.
That sucks. :( well if you're still feeling bad later, I have pudding and movies and I love visitors if you need somewhere silly to hang out. <3
That... Doesn't really make me feel less worried, Malcolm. But hopefully I can cheer him up. That's part of the whole being friends thing right? I'll do my best for sure.
Well you know where to find me and you're welcome!
I guess I'll just hope he trusts me enough to tell me.
Or maybe that's not the word I want because that sounds bad. He doesn't have to tell me anything after all and I don't have a right to be mad if he doesn't. Um. I will hope that he thinks I can help.
Are you sure about that? I'm sure if he went into a modeling agency they might be very taken with him. Or do you just want him modeling underpants for you alone?
You think so? Well, he is really tall. But he's a soldier like me so I don't know why he'd do that. He's going to probably have to do some publicity stuff now that he's Bern promoted though.
Anyway.
Um. And... Yes? Well except we're friends so I think I'm supposed to say no to that right or it would be really awkward.
I'm kind of shit at this friends thing tbh. Not sure how it's supposed to work but I'm trying to not fuck up. It's nice having time to have friends.
I'm not sure why I did that, mostly because someone at the job fair insisted I try it, and then magically contracts happened. But I wasn't interested in joining the militia, so it was better than nothing.
Friends first is the better way to go. But there isn't that much shame in letting your imagination go where you want it to.
Aw I'm sad you didn't want to be in the militia, I think it would be really cool to get to work with you. :)
I guess?
[Ugh she'd rather just be frank about stuff.]
Honestly Malcolm, and I'm going to be honest here sorry that's how I do it. I don't really do this kind of thing, so it's weird and I don't what the fuck I'm doing. If I want to get laid I just go to a bar, pick out what I want, and kick it out before I have to make it breakfast. I don't normally have time for this of thing because I'm working and the mission is more important. The mission comes first.
So I guess this is how normal people do their shit? I'm not holding my breath. I'm just... Look I know it's kind of pathetic but I'm just glad that I have a friend. Who listens to me. And doesn't think I'm crazy. So obviously my SOP is not going to work if I did want something else.
He kissed me like one time actually but then he didn't talk to me for nearly two days so at this point I think I will just focus on the soup and the talking and not worry about all this shit I don't understand and suck at anyway.
This might surprise you, but I think I understand exactly what you mean. I'm
[In a relationship? Kind of? Still? That's really rocky?]
the kind of person who is really used to one night stands, and the few relationships I've tried did not work out. Love is fickle. I'm always left waiting, and there's always something more important to do anyway. So it's terrifying. I understand. Go slow. Do what you want, make sure you're both comfortable.
I figure once I'm back on active duty I'll have a hard enough time just keeping up with the friends I've made anyway.
And.
North said he's not going to let me get taken again and I believe he will try but that doesn't mean help succeed. So this could all be gone tomorrow anyway.
Not really conducive to relationships.
It was probably dumb of me to let him kiss me. But at the time. I really wanted to. Still do. And it's not fucking fair, you know?
It's easier when you don't have anything to lose from taking a chance.
If it might all be gone, then you live day by day. You take what you want when you can get it. So why shouldn't it be the same with this, especially if he understands the situation?
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Because compliance showed up and tried to take me in and North said they pulled me out of the traction array partly. Whiskey hasn't said anything but I'm worried.
Bad complicated I'm guessing. Anything I can do to help?
Okay I guess? I'm worried about him. He didn't talk to me for like a day and a half and he said stuff happened that really upset him, I guess to do with the reflections. I told him he didn't have to come visit if he's not feeling good but he's coming over anyway which is really nice of him and making soup for me too.
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I'm not comfortable saying what might have happened with him. That'd be something for him to tell you or not himself. I think being around you will help though.
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That sucks. :( well if you're still feeling bad later, I have pudding and movies and I love visitors if you need somewhere silly to hang out. <3
That... Doesn't really make me feel less worried, Malcolm. But hopefully I can cheer him up. That's part of the whole being friends thing right? I'll do my best for sure.
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I'm sorry to worry you more. Things have been hectic around here. You'll just have to see if he wants to explain the situation to you.
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I guess I'll just hope he trusts me enough to tell me.
Or maybe that's not the word I want because that sounds bad. He doesn't have to tell me anything after all and I don't have a right to be mad if he doesn't. Um. I will hope that he thinks I can help.
There. That's better.
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Besides he has a stupid face. It is far too stupid to be an underpants man either.
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Anyway.
Um. And... Yes? Well except we're friends so I think I'm supposed to say no to that right or it would be really awkward.
I'm kind of shit at this friends thing tbh. Not sure how it's supposed to work but I'm trying to not fuck up. It's nice having time to have friends.
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Friends first is the better way to go. But there isn't that much shame in letting your imagination go where you want it to.
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I guess?
[Ugh she'd rather just be frank about stuff.]
Honestly Malcolm, and I'm going to be honest here sorry that's how I do it. I don't really do this kind of thing, so it's weird and I don't what the fuck I'm doing. If I want to get laid I just go to a bar, pick out what I want, and kick it out before I have to make it breakfast. I don't normally have time for this of thing because I'm working and the mission is more important. The mission comes first.
So I guess this is how normal people do their shit? I'm not holding my breath. I'm just... Look I know it's kind of pathetic but I'm just glad that I have a friend. Who listens to me. And doesn't think I'm crazy. So obviously my SOP is not going to work if I did want something else.
He kissed me like one time actually but then he didn't talk to me for nearly two days so at this point I think I will just focus on the soup and the talking and not worry about all this shit I don't understand and suck at anyway.
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[In a relationship? Kind of? Still? That's really rocky?]
the kind of person who is really used to one night stands, and the few relationships I've tried did not work out. Love is fickle. I'm always left waiting, and there's always something more important to do anyway. So it's terrifying. I understand. Go slow. Do what you want, make sure you're both comfortable.
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I figure once I'm back on active duty I'll have a hard enough time just keeping up with the friends I've made anyway.
And.
North said he's not going to let me get taken again and I believe he will try but that doesn't mean help succeed. So this could all be gone tomorrow anyway.
Not really conducive to relationships.
It was probably dumb of me to let him kiss me. But at the time. I really wanted to. Still do. And it's not fucking fair, you know?
It's easier when you don't have anything to lose from taking a chance.
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I just get the impression North isn't that kind of guy. So I wonder if it's an asshole thing for me to do.
I have no fucking clue what he wants so I guess that's probably the issue? I don't know Malcolm how does this even work?
I could use a drink but whiskey is an asshole so I am stuck until I get out of the hospital.
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I'm not good at relationship advice. I can't keep one myself.
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Let's go drinking together like sad bastards once I'm released. I'll be your wingman, you be mine. ;)
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