This might surprise you, but I think I understand exactly what you mean. I'm
[In a relationship? Kind of? Still? That's really rocky?]
the kind of person who is really used to one night stands, and the few relationships I've tried did not work out. Love is fickle. I'm always left waiting, and there's always something more important to do anyway. So it's terrifying. I understand. Go slow. Do what you want, make sure you're both comfortable.
I figure once I'm back on active duty I'll have a hard enough time just keeping up with the friends I've made anyway.
And.
North said he's not going to let me get taken again and I believe he will try but that doesn't mean help succeed. So this could all be gone tomorrow anyway.
Not really conducive to relationships.
It was probably dumb of me to let him kiss me. But at the time. I really wanted to. Still do. And it's not fucking fair, you know?
It's easier when you don't have anything to lose from taking a chance.
If it might all be gone, then you live day by day. You take what you want when you can get it. So why shouldn't it be the same with this, especially if he understands the situation?
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[In a relationship? Kind of? Still? That's really rocky?]
the kind of person who is really used to one night stands, and the few relationships I've tried did not work out. Love is fickle. I'm always left waiting, and there's always something more important to do anyway. So it's terrifying. I understand. Go slow. Do what you want, make sure you're both comfortable.
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I figure once I'm back on active duty I'll have a hard enough time just keeping up with the friends I've made anyway.
And.
North said he's not going to let me get taken again and I believe he will try but that doesn't mean help succeed. So this could all be gone tomorrow anyway.
Not really conducive to relationships.
It was probably dumb of me to let him kiss me. But at the time. I really wanted to. Still do. And it's not fucking fair, you know?
It's easier when you don't have anything to lose from taking a chance.
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I just get the impression North isn't that kind of guy. So I wonder if it's an asshole thing for me to do.
I have no fucking clue what he wants so I guess that's probably the issue? I don't know Malcolm how does this even work?
I could use a drink but whiskey is an asshole so I am stuck until I get out of the hospital.
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I'm not good at relationship advice. I can't keep one myself.
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Let's go drinking together like sad bastards once I'm released. I'll be your wingman, you be mine. ;)
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