So then why do it?

I figure once I'm back on active duty I'll have a hard enough time just keeping up with the friends I've made anyway.

And.

North said he's not going to let me get taken again and I believe he will try but that doesn't mean help succeed. So this could all be gone tomorrow anyway.

Not really conducive to relationships.

It was probably dumb of me to let him kiss me. But at the time. I really wanted to. Still do. And it's not fucking fair, you know?

It's easier when you don't have anything to lose from taking a chance.