"More or less. Probably don't mean anything by it but they do." Except delta but he's not going there. He lets his hand drop back down to his lap, eyes following shortly. Right. "Hell, we've both always been masochists."
He's said that before. Way at the beginning when mal didn't know about how he felt. When he wasn't sure how to handle it aside from ignore and pray he'd get over it.
Maybe he should have stuck with plan A. No one got hurt in plan A.
"Maybe we should take some time to think about this. For a few days. And come back with a mediator so I don't keep putting my foot in it." Not that he'll be going anywhere else. Well. Not that he'd be going to anyone else.
"I think that's one of the first sensible things you've said all day. We can clear our heads, come back fresh. And have someone in between." Not that he likes the idea of dragging someone else into this, but hell, there are already way too many people involved.
"My therapist. She declined when I asked her to help with this conversation. Says she might be seen as biased even if she isn't." Which is entirely fair.
"She might be the one to set a solid date and time for us. So neither of us have the full power here. Might be...good. I can do it. I'll--I'll get in touch with her sometime tomorrow. Tell her to set us up in a few days to talk this through."
"Okay. That'll work." A beat. "I'm- I'm not moving out but I'm going to stay somewhere else till we talk if that's okay. The warehouse I've been setting up. I should be doing something productive with all this angst, my doctor says."
"No." It should be upsetting how easy that is to admit. "I don't want this to be permanent until we figure this out, but I think it would be best if you stay out of the house for the time being. That would be for the best. For me. And Delta, and North, probably."
"Course, mal. Whatever you think is best." He'll pack a small bag when they're done...and box up most of the rest. No matter how good its going he can't shake the tendency to expect the worst.
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He's said that before. Way at the beginning when mal didn't know about how he felt. When he wasn't sure how to handle it aside from ignore and pray he'd get over it.
Maybe he should have stuck with plan A. No one got hurt in plan A.
"Maybe we should take some time to think about this. For a few days. And come back with a mediator so I don't keep putting my foot in it." Not that he'll be going anywhere else. Well. Not that he'd be going to anyone else.
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