Not really, not anymore. [ He rolls his sleeve back, showing the marks. ] 'Vessel of a beloved soul'. A reminder to not. I never actually hurt myself but- I'd get out of my own head sometimes. Forget this isn't real. Think it's all just a blip till I fade out for good and need something to ground me. Pain is grounding. So I'd go into cage matches in D4 and take a few hits I could've dodged. Lean into them here and there.
Just to get bruises.
I've wanted to for different reasons the past few weeks but I haven't. The urge pops up but- I don't. Hurting me's hurting people that care about me. So I....don't.
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Not really, not anymore. [ He rolls his sleeve back, showing the marks. ] 'Vessel of a beloved soul'. A reminder to not. I never actually hurt myself but- I'd get out of my own head sometimes. Forget this isn't real. Think it's all just a blip till I fade out for good and need something to ground me. Pain is grounding. So I'd go into cage matches in D4 and take a few hits I could've dodged. Lean into them here and there.
Just to get bruises.
I've wanted to for different reasons the past few weeks but I haven't. The urge pops up but- I don't. Hurting me's hurting people that care about me. So I....don't.