"I was drunk the first time I was with them. We weren't even together yet but that sort of started everything for the rest of it. The night of the solstice, you know? Afterward I wrote it off as a one time thing and settled into pining for you again." His eyes flick back up to Malcolm for a second, searching, before falling to find whatever he'd been looking for and flicking back down. "The second time I was with one of them was new years eve. After the night with north were things went sour. I was drunk and angry and didn't honestly go there intending to do what I ended up doing but things transpired."

Which is aboutdout as vague as he could ever get ever and it might not be fair to Malcolm but he doesn't need to damn anyone else with this. It's all on him.

"At first it was just fucking around and that is shitty, I got no illusions about that. It felt nice to be wanted, not that you don't you just- I never wanted to pressure you into something you weren't ready for." Which is no fucking excuse and this is about where the walkthrough with the doc feel apart. "The loving them thing snuck up on me. They know about you. They don't mind. They also thought is was really fucking dumb of me not to say anything."